Alex's Journal! - dedicated to SPUD

hoyl crap i have a "strong automatic preference for people of european decent"

Mon, 22 Nov 2004 08:23:54 GMT

https://implicit.harvard.edu/implicit/demo/selectatest.html take some of these tests. they're fun. post with your results!

bwah ha. the true/fals quiz!!!

Mon, 22 Nov 2004 06:43:46 GMT

1. i have od'd on cocaine
2. i have od'd on heroine
3. i have od'd on marijuana
4. i have od'd on oxycontin
5. i have od'd on vikadin
6. i have od'd on valuim
7. Hasjy is the name of my cat
8. my computer has an AMD processor
9. My computer has an Nvidia video card
10. my GF is soraya's cousin
11. My mom smokes weed
12. My step mom spells her name choi
13. my stereo system is 1000 watts RMS.
14. I flipped a car 5x at 140mph on the boeing freeway
15. i can squat 425 pounds!!!!!

good luck all. beware: 16. I am a sneaking fucking bastard.

nikk and i are geniuses!

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 21:26:13 GMT

I wish i had command of the english language that jesus had. yes, i can improve my voacabulary, learn some latin, but where does that extra somethign come from? that part that makes people beleive. Meh, maybe that's why he's jesus, or budha, or muhammad. all these men had something i lack. i'd put that somethign into words but i can;t because i don't have it! woo that sucks. anyway. Nikk and i had the a super-awesome-philosophical convo last night. We spoke of the possible consequences of Bush being relected, liek the fall of the empire and rise of another. What if Bush fixes all the probs in Iraq? wouldn;t that be terrible? cuz then the crapiness of it would be overshadowed by the eventual success, and all the lies wouldn't be recorded in the history books becasue they had no consequence. Now. what if everything went to all hell? then bush's tyranny would be a part of history and something we could learn from in the future. We also talked about how much one person could affect the world. We came to the conclusion that yes, 1 perosn is all it takes. One highly motivated, resourceful person, who is able to selflessly give themselves to a cause. If that person cannot break free from the normative thinking that is America, then no, they couldn't do anything. Ha. i think i have a criteria for our savoir:
1. Understands they must give up all material possessions, their family. NOTHING CAN HOLD THEM BACK!
2. resourceful. how can you change the world if you can;t get a gun man. you ain't bruce lee!
3. Prophet like command of the english language. how could you have anything less, you wouldn;t be able to gain a strong enough following to create change. well. i guess you could do it all yourself. but shiz. you have to answer to someone.

ok. can you be my savoir? can you save humanity from the military-undistrial-machine? go split an atom.

studying hard - and rocking out!!! woo!

Fri, 29 Oct 2004 07:29:02 GMT

heh. 15 hours of studying in two days. I am fucking crazy. woo. time for a break. hey the 4pp that read my journal. post some of your fav songs. im getting tired of my collection and want to expand my musical horizons. thanks. olive juice to all, especially you!

Tue, 26 Oct 2004 04:40:05 GMT

ya. so i've decided i need to stop half assing college. The Alex and myself have decided to keep chekc on each other- we made a schedule of our day that aloows for study time, play time, food, class... everything. and we must follow this schedule ot the dot unless we finish out studies early. This way we'll have structure in our lives and hopefully i won't bomb any more drama assignments... ya. it was kinda funny actually. my partner and i were first so we would be graded on easier. we had been practicing all morning on act 3 scene vii of tartuffe. We both knew our lines well, the beats and blocking were in place. Hlf way through i forgot ALL MY LINES> WTF!!!??? i never just "forget" things 100%. jesus! i feel liek ajackass. oh well. maybe they wont notice my presence in drama tomorrow... the shame is unbearable. lol.

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 23:23:44 GMT

opinion poll. van won't let me use his bike to ride it 3.54 miles to parisa's house even if i give him my credit card as collateral. he's basing this off of how i drive cars. and how i crashed my integra. great. i don;t drive like a jackass anymore. if i get one infraction i goto jail for a year. but in any case. ITS A FUCKING BIKE. the poll is. would you let me use your bike?

What you say vs what you do

Fri, 15 Oct 2004 18:58:24 GMT

Sigh. Are words so worthless? I want everyone's opinion on this one. IF someone promises something, is that good enough? or do they have to do what they promised first, and then thats good enough... i dunno. i feel like my word is worthless. its been discredited by people who i thought were my friends. Well, they still are. they're just not loyal or trustworthy. oh well. nobody is perfect. parisa, don't tweak. lol. its ok. i could wait a lifetime for you!

I wish i was a girl - sometimes. lol

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 21:06:01 GMT

Girls have it so much better than guys when it comes to sex! Argh. if you pp didn't have periods i'd go get a sex change. well - that wouldn't work would it. lol.

my new fav song is gary numan - cars

Wed, 13 Oct 2004 17:33:05 GMT

i never realized how.... lets see. one person i know put it as "hopelessly romantic and cheesy." I love it.

College is jsut about the coolest thing ever. x2

Wed, 13 Oct 2004 06:14:54 GMT

Wow. i haven't posted in a LONG TIME. oh well, nobody reads it except missi. HEY MISSI! Lets see, where to begin. ill start with the business. My reckless driving ticket got reduced to a NEG 2 pending i dont do anythign wrong in the next 2 years. long time. jeeze. i met soraya's cousin, Parisa. she's super cool and super beautiful. She's just about the most compatible person i've ever come across. She listens to german music and loves the 80s liek me. and dresses how i did before i hired my style squad (Nikk Spadaro and Joanne) to make these difficult decisions for me. lol. I'm stoked to say the least. I think im concentrating a little too hard on not fucking it up though. She's head over heals for me but wants to make sure im into her so she knows shes not just some fling. Gawd. everyone thinks im like this super PIMP or something. Im still the same old ALex. Just with some xtra crazy stories to tell. Econ 201 rocks. I liek money. Drama is alright cuz i like not working. lol. Psych sucks cuz all it is is a vocab course. Argh. and i allready have midterms which im not terribly prepared for. SHIT. oh well. I'll do fine. Later Dudes.

Fri, 24 Sep 2004 04:47:06 GMT

drugs are a funny thing. i've been looking at the psychological effects of all the diff drugs ive used in my life. this should be an SAT anaology, lol. ok ok. here's the questions- cocaine:caffeine as A)heroine:runner's high. B)weed:sleeping for like 12 hours. or C) zoloft:using psychology to feel better. haha, one is right. good luck.

Pain and Suffering.

Wed, 22 Sep 2004 04:24:30 GMT

i wish there was a word stronger than sorry - i mean shit, sorry just doesn;t cut it. with one word is someone supposed to forgive you for all the trouble you have caused them? even if there was a word that did, would that make everthinkg ok? perhaps thats why pp belive in forgiving one another. Thats all i can do. and if i piss you off, please forgive me.

hanging with the dudes

Tue, 21 Sep 2004 08:06:20 GMT

i never thought chilling with eric riggerelo and david and jeff reiki and nikk (spud) would get me in such a good mood. Its always nice to have opinions from pp you don;t see too often in combination with ones you do. my mind is pretty clear right now- I think i'm back to my good ol' self.

i am fucked up

Tue, 21 Sep 2004 03:14:44 GMT

i am seriously fucked up. i'm gonna goto seattle with nikk and hopefulyl come to some conclusiosn about where im at in my life. i got too arrogant, being a "franchise manager" and surviving a "140mph car crash." WTF... I fail at the things that are truly important, liek morals, integrity, and discresion. It seems i dive into everythhing with full confidence in my abilities. and to leanr my abilities are.... inadequate makes me think. have i been diving with full energy and confidence into the wrong direction!? sigh. i can;t say. im so far from what i used to be i don't even know anymore. i can't even be honest with myself. off to seattle-

children, i have learned something.

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 03:58:52 GMT

DRUGS ARE BAD. I had some seeds with LSA in them (kinda liek LSD) and it whacked me out for a whole day and didn't allow me to enjoy my last day in pullman. man, screw drugs.

i have come to a realization

Tue, 14 Sep 2004 05:32:35 GMT

"trical09: "Men don't have female friends. They just have women they haven't slept with yet." Someone famous said this." max, you are a genius. i want one of those movie relationships. you know, the ones where the guy realises the chick who has been hsi friend his whole life is the one he loves. thing is, i've never been able to be a friend for any girls w/o trying to ask them out. sigh, WTF.

will i ever reach a balance?

Tue, 14 Sep 2004 02:04:31 GMT

wtf is wrong with me. i constantly throw away chances for success and love for what? a cheap orgasm? a kiss? the thrill of going really fast? the ones who matter know what i'm talking about. god damnit nikk, help me on this one! i really f'd up and need some guidance. Also, AIM fucking sucks. i can never tell when pp are being sarcastic, especially pp i only know from aim. ya, thats a funny storie guys, give me a call for it 7456311. later all

dreams are scarry.

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 20:49:06 GMT

you ever have a dream thats so good or so bad that the rest of your day is good or bad? justa thought.

OMFG!~

Mon, 06 Sep 2004 22:29:56 GMT

-sigh- my friend from topenish came over a couple days ago. his mom wouldn't let him drive all that way unless i promised to look out for him, so i said i would. But, since he's crazy he got into trouble anyway. we were supposed to meet up at jack in the box after a quick race at traxx but he got lost and decided to goto one of his friend's houses in everett. while coming back he was getting sleep and let this guy named "casey" drive him back to my house. well, casey got tired too and pulled into some residential neighborhood and fell asleep. they woke up in the morning to cops knocking on the car windows. they cops put kyle down for possession and soimething else... paraphenelia. freekin' sucks. oh well, he's ok and stuff... but damn am i pissed at him for getting in trouble while i was responsible for him.

this is going to be an "alexme" news post.

Mon, 06 Sep 2004 18:46:21 GMT

august 19th: I bought an 94 acrua integra GSR for 4900... cash. after 2 minutes owning the vehicle i took it up the boeing freeway at 140mph and rolled it 6 times when i lost control in a drift. the only thing salvagable on the car was the top-end. the block had a hole in it and was spilling oil, the tranny had a hole, the interior looked like a bomb had gone off in there... and the speakers had holes in them from the extrem g forces. ya - i was able to sell it for 500 bucks which left me with 16 after the tow truck fees. damnit. guess i have to buy another.

some other stuff: so like, i typed in this random SN: kay78910202 and started talking to this dude who seemed to be a freekin party animal. he told me how he was having keggars in the 5th grade (lie) but whatever, he was nutz! his sis (nikki) had to goto the UW advising session a couple days later and decided she didn;t want to goto thw UW anymore. (she lives in TOpenish so all her friends are going to WSU). well, kyle (the random sn dude) had her talk to me and i think i convinced her to stay. we'll see. omg its almost noon. i'm leaving for topenish in 11 mins to drive with kyle back to his house (he came to visit) and say hi to his sis. later my 3 livejournal pp.

My theory on decisions.

Sun, 11 Jul 2004 11:08:44 GMT

Christ, nikk made me make this thing solly so konidias could read it! konidias, you better say something cool, i'm sleepy. ya, so like -

decisions are 50% chance and 50% you're actual decision. SO, if it turns out really well, don't credit yourself too much, and if it ends up sucking, pp shouldn't give you a hard time. You can do more to eliminate the shit that happens by knowing your limits. Like i know my limits because i consistently test them, so i don't do things like jump off abridge and onto a boat. but, if i were able to do that, and i did, and it failed, that woulnd't be 100% my fault cuz the chance part is probably what f'd me, not the part that was my own decision. and yes, konidias, some pp do make stupid f'ing decisions, but they've surpassed their limits, and thats there fault. a seemingly stupid decision maybe not be stupid to the person partaking in it cuz they know they can do it with success.